Thinking in the dark

(...)I’m tainted; I’m tired, of being the same.

I’m desperate, I’m bored, I’m begging for change.

What if you’re normal and wanna be strange?(...)

(As a Blonde - Selena Gomez & The Scene)

“I like the dark. When it’s dark I can imagine anything I like, but when I switch on the lights everything’s real again and that sucks.”

Of course I didn’t say that, I’m the kind of person who’s afraid of the dark because I start imagining horrible things, I don’t know what is going on until I switch on the lights and prove that there was nothing there. But when I heard that phrase I was really shocked, especially because I like the night and I like imaging things that are not part of my reality.

I’m telling you this because I’ve recently been feeling really bored and I found myself wanting a different life, not that I’ve never felt that way before but it was one of those times when you really want to start doing what you’ve been thinking for so long and that made me think even more… so I did what I always do when I’m thinking too much.. I listened to some music. Of course, I found the perfect track as you can see but I also did something else. I switch off all the lights and there I was in the middle of my room, in the dark, listening to loud music and looking everywhere although I know my room like the palm of my hand –I would say better–,  anyway I started moving everywhere trying not think about bad things and focus on what I had been thinking. After I was done listening to music, I switched on the lights and I felt powerful and full of energy. I don’t know if it changed me, actually I hardly doubt it, but it gave me the strength to wake up tomorrow and try, which was what I had been looking for.

Thanks for reading 

>Vicky..

P.S. The quote is just something I heard from someone and they are not the exact words even.